tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2009-11-12:/MokoFeed2009-11-12T15:13:34+01:00tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2008-06-24:/2008/06/24/update-something-more-that-s-been-bother-4357332/SeiLa2008-06-24T16:32:35+02:002008-06-24T16:32:35+02:00 <p>Ok, so... I haven't been on here for a very long time...<br> The reason behind this is... well, I've been busy...</p> <p>The update is, mom has been kicking me and my friend out of the house, like 3 times for the past 2 months... LOL... And its been working for a while, but now we need to get like £300 in 3 days....!!! How the hell are we supposed to do that. And she only told me that like 2 days ago!! I don't know what to do, cos if we don't get the money, she will kick us out for real.. before it was only like for a night, now it will be properly for good, and for real...</p> <p>One thing is that I kind of want my friend to go away, but then, I don't again. Cos we kind of talked that if we don't get the money we will go work as escorts, and that's like prostitution, and I really don't want to do that..</p> <p>I mean, WTF is wrong with my rents??? I just don't understand them... I'm actually starting to hate them. They will let their only daughter, 18 year old daughter, go on the streets, cos I don't have the money to pay the rent. But you see, dad will let his friend stay over w/out paying rent, and mom will let her friend stay over w/out paying rent. But I have to pay the rent or go somewhere else... </p> <p>I am so angry, I can't even put it in words. Just wanna do something, like rob a bank or something. I just wish I would have enough money to go somewhere and just disappear from here, so that I wouldn't have to see them ever again.</p> <p>Anyone have any ideas???<br> Have a fun week<br> SeiLa.. xoxo </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk/2008/06/24/update-something-more-that-s-been-bother-4357332/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2007-10-31:/2007/10/31/guys_are_the_worst~3221967/SeiLa2007-10-31T02:05:18+01:002007-10-31T02:05:18+01:00 <p> Ok, to get this off my chest. This is something that has been bothering me for a while now... </p> <p>So... This cute guy I met on the internet asked me out, BUT sayd we can only go out in two weeks, so I waited, and waited... And nothing. So it's been a month now, if not even longer. I wrote to him asking when can we meet, he sayd whenever I want. I offered this weekend, and he never got back to me... And that was 4 days ago...</p> <p>So what should I do??? Keep waiting or just forget about him??? I mean, he is very cute...</p> <p>Okei, sorry about this, had to get it off my chest...</p> <p>Oh and another thing... Why do guys always assume that the girl will sleep with them at the end of the date??? Or that talking about sex with your ex girlfriend turns us on??? I mean HELLOOOOOOO!!!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk/2007/10/31/guys_are_the_worst~3221967/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2007-09-29:/2007/09/29/whole_ed_world~3056388/SeiLa2007-09-29T03:17:03+02:002007-09-29T03:17:03+02:00 <p>Ok... This issue is really bothering me...</p> <p>There are debates going about who is to blame that young girls ( and boys ) develop an Eating Disorder!!!</p> <p>There are alot of people who are pointing the finger to Pro-Ed websites and Forums, others say the media is to blame, because they show us stick thin models and celebritys everywhere we look.</p> <p>So I wonder, who really is to blame?</p> <p>Well the answer is : NO ONE and EVERYONE, simple as that, because if we continue to point the finger at others , we will never see the error of our ways.</p> <p>Some parents and doctors think that Pro-Ed website are bad for the people who have an Ed. They are trying to shut them down without even realising that if they do so, Ed people wont have no where to go to talk to like minded people aboiut what they are going through. And the media isn't doing the Ed people any good, by glamurising the Eating Disordered World, by telling people about only the dark side of the Ed world. Because there is soooo much more to it.</p> <p>No one, except the Ed people , actually know how it feels to life every day with an Ed, and what its like to have it, to be a part of that world, and how hard it is to get out.</p> <p>I know that alot of people think that all Pro-Ed websites and the people on them are really bad and 'evil', and are trying to destroy other peoples lifes, trying to 'teach' young girls how to 'be' anorexic or bulimic. That they are Against Recovery and/or are doing it for the attention.</p> <p>In my oppinion the real danger is the media. The more they advertise the whole issue, the more young girls will think that this is 'cool' and acceptable. A young girl who reads her sisters teen magazine, or reads one herself, will see the whole Ed issue there and think that if its in a popular and cool magazine, than it is cool to have it.</p> <p>The following part was written by a person who has an Ed:</p> <p>Ana in My own Words."</p> <p> People ask me what is Ana? To me? Why is there sucha craze about her? What does she has that everyone so desperatly wants?</p> <p>Well, the answers to these questions are very simple...</p> <p>-Control<br> -Perfection<br> -Weightless</p> <p>Ana is someone ( something ) that will be there for you when no one else is. And will listen to you and help you through. Ana is perfect, she means control and she is a mean bitch! You can't get rid of her when you want, but when "they" help you, you don't want her to go!<br> You can't help but to listen to and do what ever she tells you to do. Sometimes you don't even realise that you are following her orders, because you are so used to it." </p> <p>Another Girl said that : " Ana is our saviour. Our dearest mother. WE love her. She gives us self-love and self-control. For that we listen to her and do what she tells us to do.</p> <p>A close friend of mine, who has an Ed herself had different views on this issue!</p> <p>" I strongly dissagree. Some people are developing Ed's as a means of attention seeking, some think that it will make them cool or interesting. And none of this has to do with the media, just their own screwed up minds" </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk/2007/09/29/whole_ed_world~3056388/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2007-09-23:/2007/09/23/feeling_at_the_mo~3024721/SeiLa2007-09-23T01:16:46+02:002007-09-23T01:16:46+02:00 <p>I feel like such an angry teen at the mo...<br> Don't really know why, just keep listening to Good Charlotte & Panic! At The Disco, and just feel sooooo ANGRY at everyone...</p> <p>Oh yeah, my therapist says its cos I have suppresed anger inside, that I need to get rid of, but I dont want to cos then I will be happy and nice and no reason to just shout and punch the pillow... ( dont do the walls no more )</p> <p>Gosh, why is my life so complicated?</p> <p>And TheBoi... Well,hes just ... Oh... I dont really want to talk about him...</p> <p>I keep having these nightmares baout him, where he's trying to tell me smething But I wake up just before he gets the chance :@ Which is quite frustrating...</p> <p>BUt who cares, right?</p> <p>Okey, I think I will stop now, otherwise I will be on here writing the whole night...</p> <p>You Know You Love Me </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk/2007/09/23/feeling_at_the_mo~3024721/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2007-09-22:/2007/09/23/about_girl_suicides~3024661/SeiLa2007-09-23T00:48:58+02:002007-09-29T03:18:15+02:00 <p>I meal like WTF???<br> What is happening in this world???</p> <p>Like me for example... I hate my life, yeah I am depressed and suicidal, but that does NOT mean that I will go and kill myself... I just think that's dumb. I don't mean to judge no one, but all of us have some bad times in life, so should we all just jump of a bridge cos of that?</p> <p>And this I'm writting about the suicidal girls in particular...</p> <p>It's like yeah okey, I understund, you're in love with your boyfriend, or ex boyfriend, or just some random guy, but just cos hes not noticing you, does not give you a reason to slit your wrists. If he doesnt like you, it's not your foult. Its cos hes gay... <img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p>Any guy would be crazy not to want to be with you....</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk/2007/09/23/about_girl_suicides~3024661/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2007-09-20:/2007/09/20/more_about_me~3009415/SeiLa2007-09-20T05:41:15+02:002007-09-20T05:41:15+02:00 <p>Im a drama Queen<br> I hate school<br> I like the rain<br> When Im with a guy<br> Im like guy obssest<br> You will see that in every post I will be talking about a guy or guys<br> Dont know dont care</p> <p>The type of guy I go for ( usually ) :</p> <p>Tall ( short )<br> Dark hair<br> Green eyes<br> Either Bad boy from the hood or the rich bad boy from the Upper Side of Something lol<br> Depends on my mood<br> Oh and I would never go out with a guy who wears trainers... Never. NOT ACCEPTABLE...</p> <p>What else... Oh I cant remember it now.. Oh well... Will have to make another post then</p> <p>You know you love me </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk/2007/09/20/more_about_me~3009415/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2007-09-20:/2007/09/20/my_feelings~3009380/SeiLa2007-09-20T05:26:34+02:002007-09-20T05:26:34+02:00 <p>Im still in love with my ex boyfriend<br> He was my first and real love<br> I know I fill have two great loves in life<br> He was the first one<br> We broke up in Jan 07<br> Now its Sep 07<br> Still not over him<br> I thought I was but Im not<br> I wanna be with him<br> But he hates me<br> hes going out with my ex best friend<br> Shes such a bitch<br> I hate her<br> Wanna kill her</p> <p>My ex was perfect for me<br> But i dumped him<br> I cheated on him<br> And he never gave me a second chance<br> I have proven to him that I love him alot of times<br> But still he doesnt want to be with me<br> I dont blame him<br> I hate me too</p> <p>I wanna be loved and wanna love<br> I belive in Prince Charming<br> I belive in fairy tales<br> I know that when my time will come<br> He will come<br> My Prince Charming<br> And he will love me</p> <p>I wanna get married<br> I even know to who<br> And I wanna have his kids<br> I even know how to name them</p> <p>Im not pshyco<br> Tho I sometimes act that way<br> Im just still a little kid at heart that doesnt want to grow up<br> I have a Peter Pan syndrome<br> But I want a family<br> But with the right guy</p> <p>I met him already<br> We used to be together<br> Till he chose weed over me<br> Tho I still love him</p> <p>Im not talking about my first ex no more<br> Im talking bout my second ex</p> <p>He was from the hood<br> A bad boy<br> I love bad boys from the hood</p> <p>Tho Im Upper East Side Girl</p> <p>Im like Juliet and hes like Romeo<br> Im like Marrisa and hes like Ryan</p> <p>Oh, the love<br> Why am I still single?<br> Oh yeah, Im shy<br> I hate me<br> And I cant be trusted</p> <p>I lie alot<br> I cheat on my boyfrinds ( dont tell them )<br> Im an actress<br> A very good one</p> <p>I can make you fall in love with me without saying a word</p> <p>You know you love me </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk/2007/09/20/my_feelings~3009380/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk,2007-09-20:/2007/09/20/intro_into_my_life~3009230/SeiLa2007-09-20T03:08:00+02:002007-09-20T03:08:00+02:00 <p>Im a girl<br> A cute one<br> Im 17 will be 18 in november<br> I have blonde hair with dark roots cos I cant decide what colour should I dye my hair<br> I have green eyes<br> Im tall 5,10<br> I have problems with self image</p> <p>I have a mom<br> She's nice<br> I love her</p> <p>My dad is out of the picture<br> I see him once a week for about 10 min<br> Can't stand him</p> <p>Im the only child<br> Dont say Im lucky cos Im under alot of presure</p> <p>I hate my life tho its great<br> I have no friends<br> And guys dont want to date me cos they think Im a slut which Im not</p> <p>I come accross as a bitch<br> Im actually very shy<br> Im weak<br> I dont like to show it<br> I want a boyfriend<br> Someone to take care of me</p> <p>If anyone has read a book about this then you will know what I mean when I say that Im a love addict</p> <p>I used to smoke and drink<br> I used to partyu alot and have sex<br> Now I dont</p> <p>I work<br> I hate it<br> But its ok</p> <p>I complaint alot</p> <p>And its always about me</p> <p>You know you love me</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://through-a-teens-eyes.blog.co.uk/2007/09/20/intro_into_my_life~3009230/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>